10:05 AM




9:50 AM

Chemistry paper was do able. I'm left with Biology and the worst, Maths.

Let's get wasted.

10:30 PM



4:00 PM


"Fuck guys with no balls who make up stories about a girl who they can't get."
1:50 PM


A Big Happy Birthday to Dear friend, San! Like finally you're legal. You know what to do when you turn legal right? Enjoy! :)


10:10 AM


In 2 weeks, i managed to lose 4 kg and still needs to lose more to reach my target.

I miss having Fast foods. I miss Burger King the most because that's where dearest and i first had our lunch together and which also became our favourite Fast Food Restaurant. I miss the times that we ALWAYS have our lunch/ dinner at Fast foods places. I miss eating at night. Fat, fat, fat. I shall put food out of my mind for some time. I need to go jogging again soon.

Busy, busy, busy having fun.

Such a pity that some girls can hate me when they don't even know me. OR maybe it was just because that your boyfriend and i used to contact way before you huh girl? Haha. Loser sia. -.-
11:00 AM





Science bitch.
10:15 AM


After school on Friday, after going home, bathing and changing, accompanied Aida to Far East to get some stuffs for her. Luckily we were on time to get her things. Bumped into friends and met Hazel Baby at her work place for a while before heading home.

Saturday night fever. Before Club, was seriously a disaster. There were just so much that happened that i couldn't take it anymore but to break down outside. Anyway. . I am really sorry to Mamat, Yan, Nad, Hana & Moona that i have to split from you guys cos yesterday initial plan was for us all together to head to Zirca but me and my other friends were late so Mamat etc ended up going inside first.

Me and my other friends headed to Social House instead. Went inside at midnight and out at 5 in the morning. I swear i couldn't feel my legs. I bumped into friends! I don't know why i always get excited when i bump into friends. Oh anyway. Slacked outside till 6 and off we walked to the bus stop. Waited for the first bus and while waiting, saw Mamat etc! Ran to them and apologised a lot a lot. :(

Reached homey at 8am. Was sleeping peacefully when Mummy woke me at 2pm to get ready for a marriage. Like WTH. Fucking tired sia. : (

Right now, i'm at Starbucks with my friend, studying for my upcoming test. I skipped school today cos it's Maths and i'm still stoned and tired to go to school.
11:25 AM

End.

Tomorrow is Saturday Night Fever and i've yet to think where i'm heading. Whoohoo. But still, i can't wait for tomorrow. :)

Oh boys please stop coming. Please stop calling, please stop asking. I've got to learn to change. Cos i love my baby and i don't need any more. Only accepting you boys as my friends.

10:00 AM




10:10 PM




12:35 PM



9:52 AM


I just got back from work so now let's update on some stuffs that happened yesterday aite. Instead of going to Wild wild wet, we headed to Escape instead. It's all free tickets so why not just spend it. So it was me, Teeq, Munir and his friend, Adil. The scorching whether seriously squeeze the sweat out of us. Irritating gile.

Played some Go karts. I drove and i accidently bumped into someone infront and i panic and let go of the handle and screamed. Luckily Munir was beside me. Hahaha. Omg, i'm so blur. And how do you expect me to drive a real car if i can't focus that easily? Haha. -.-

At 8pm, off we headed for our dinner. Okay, actually their dinner cos i didn't eat. (: Munir & Adil ate at Bk and i bumped into darling Luqman there! Wheee. Went outside and talked to him for a while. After Bk, headed to KFC cos Teeq wanted to eat there. And while i was there, Luqman msged saying that San just came and wanted to meet me. So i asked them to come at KFC. So met San also. Omg, i just miss my friends so much!

Then headed to Munir friend's pit at Pasir Ris park and an old time friend, Mannto was also there. Stayed there for a while till 10pm where Teeq sayang needs to head home. So they sent us to the bus stop while Munir & the rest overnight there.

Went home, bathe and slept not peacefully and woke up at 7am and off to work. Pictures as usual, just wait for Munir to send it which, will take very very long. Hahah. Tomorrow's another day in school. ARGHHHH.

Too much people are asking me to the clubs already which tempt me even more. Baby okay with it kan? (:
4:15 PM




4:14 PM


I'm in school. Im feeling really pressuried right now. Half of it is due to my fkcing period which came yesterday. Which clearly spoils my day to Wild Wild Wet tomorrow. Argh. Secondly is simply because i'm too tired today, like really too tired. I have a routine now everyday which i have being doing for a week and i'm getting really tired and, PARANOID. School, jogging, chores at home etc, with no energy; (no food eaten.)

My body is aching, my eyes are dry. I need a nice spa massage. I am always looking forward for my weekends cos i hate my weekdays in school. Now it's only 9.45am and i'm dying for the clock to strike 3.30pm. I really, badly need my bed.

My Biology problem for today:
The total length of DNA within all your cells can make a trip from the Earth to the sun and back 300 times. How can the DNA of a eukaryotic cell be fitted into the cell nucleus without compromising its function?
9:45 AM


I don't care about Maths. To hell with Maths. The one thing i can never understand. Well, I need lots to catch up in Science. I feel so stupid when i can't seem to answer the questions in my worksheet properly. I need Mr. Bernard to teach me Chemistry again. I forgot almost everything and i need all that information back. I want to do well for my Science here in Polytechnic like how i did in Secondary School. :(

Why on earth am i slacking so much in Poly? I'm having too much distractions i think. Like really. All i think about is Fun, fun, fun. Well, I'll go home and search for all the remaining notes i have on Science. And if not, i can ask it back from the O level people. Wheeee. Baby, help me can? Help me focus. :( You know you can do that.
11:35 AM



9:45 AM


I'm really tired right now. Luckily my body isn't cramp as i expected it to always be after jogging/ exercising. Well i can't wait to end school cos i'll be meeting dearest again today. School is the plain old thing and i think i really need to start paying attention because teacher finally caught me. He asked me to do a SIMPLE question on the board and i was too lazy to even think where else everyone else knows how to answer it. Pathetic me. Wake up ZAA. -__-

I need to buy so much things. And i think i'm going to have money shortage soon. I still need to buy my LAB COAT. Whoohoo. And maybe a Halloween costume, that is if i'm going to any Halloween parties. Well well. I need money. I'm working only on Sunday this week. Wheee, i like.

And speaking of work, my BIG BIG BOSS actually chatted with me via Facebook just now and seriously it's kinda weird. Hahah. He so not the Boss-boss like. He gave me an advice to study hard and hopefully i can get a Master like him. Omeegod, that's so not me. Actually i just realise the only problem about me is just that im plain indolent. Can i marry my Boss instead? Hahahah. Okay, enough about $$$.

try, no really. try harder bitch.
12:00 PM





2:25 PM


Spent my weekends just right. I've done every single thing on my check list below except for Studying of course.

Spent Saturday shopping away with Family & Cousins. Bought lots of new stuffs. 4 shoes and a bag but im still not satisfied due to the fact that i haven't bought any new tops/ dresses. I need to shop for it but i can't find a suitable time to. Weekdays is a big NO NO for me to go shopping cause i'm always busy with school & Baby after. And worst, i have a jogging schedule now. -__-

Dieting is really driving me crazy. But i want to lose 6kg, i don't care! I don't care how many people have been telling me to not lose weight or im not fat or whatever cos i know myself, that i am FAT. I look in the mirror naked everyday. Whoohoo.

It's hard going through everything alone.
But once again, which friend cares?
9:20 PM

End.

11:10 AM




10:10 AM


School is never ending. Yesterday, Lunch with Ili Mahirah, back home with Aida. At night, Zahidah came over to my crib and watched Spore Idol together. A day passed by.

Know me well and you'll know i throw away betrayers and ineffective friends easily cos i don't need them in my life.
9:20 AM




9:15 AM



9:45 AM


Zaa needs to exercise and jog.
Zaa needs to learn cooking.
Zaa needs to start focusing in school.
Zaa needs to start taking care of herself.
& Zaa knows she keeps saying this but she'll never change cos,
that's her weakness.
ARGHHHHH.

Baby, you know i can't stop missing you.
Can i live with you so i can wake up every morning with you by my side?
9:45 AM


Happy Birthday my darling Sue! Finally 18th.
And Happy Advanced Birthday Daddy!
Love love love you all!

I have no idea when will i start cutting down my food intake and start jogging. I'm getting fatter ever since im with Munir. Hahah. Cos he loves to feed me. Okay maybe it's just me. But still! I need to exercise! Who can help this fat, lazy girl?

Today i ate Rice and then KFC and now i just finished eating Pizza. I only ate a slice because i'm too bloated. Speaking of Pizza, the delivery boy came and was shocked that it was my terrible ex boyfriend Shawal from Secondary School. Had a small conversation before leaving. Hahah. Funny, funny.

Oh well tomorrow will be another 5 days of boredom. Oh god i feel like giving up on School. It's getting harder to endure. Any Rich guys willing to marry me? I don't mind marrying now. Hahah. Ohh please Zaa. -__-

I wanna spend my every night with him.
10:15 PM



11:59 PM




11:55 PM









10:10 AM


Where were you when i most needed you guys?
You guys were always there during the happy times but when problems occur and when i need someone beside me so badly, no one were there.
No initiative, not even a concern unless i was the one who constantly have to find you guys.
A simple friend expects me to always be there for them but a real friend expects to always be there for me.
But, i see nothing, no effort, nothing.
I miss someone coming all the way to find me whenever i have a problem.
I miss having someone call me and ask me if im alright.
I miss my bestfriend.
And for once i thought i was alright without my bestfriend.
But it seems harder then i can imagine.
I grew up having a bestfriend by my side and now she's all gone.
I don't need any replacement.
Just a simple support and help whenever i need it from you guys.
This is just an expression and trust me, i expect nothing because i already know the outcome.
You guys still won't bother.

I can't believe im going through this.
12:30 PM



10:00 PM


Second day in school today wasn't that bad compared to the first. Due to the fact that everyone in my new class are getting closer and are finally mixing around. And it's Physics module today which makes me so enthuastic to find out the solution to the problem. See how Science can cheer me up at times. Oh well. Skip all the school stuffs now.

Yesterday my dearest was late so he didn't ended up fetching me but just met him at Tampines instead. Waited for Afan and off we went. Teeqy house with dearest at night and just home after.

Today morning, baby was such a dear like always, and sent me to school. We wanted to talk and gossip in the bus but the both of us ended up sleeping soon after. I was so sleepy i swear and baby haven't even slept last night. Pity him. Thanks baby for sending me. I know now you're soundly asleep at home. So people, especially the GIRLS. Don't disturb him kay. (:

Now i'm back to my problem for the day. May be meeting dearest after school again. That is if im not tired. Take care sayangs.

love.
1:00 PM


I just had to begin my First Day of Semester with Maths. And, it's all about Vectors. Come on, i skipped studying Vectors during O levels, praying that it will be a choice question which it was and now what, i have to study it over again. And, a more complicated one, excuse me. God, Maths can really pressure me up. Arghh.

My new classmates are alright and i know it'll all take time to be friends as usual. I'm missing my former classmates, W45M bad. I just met them during my break and how i wish we were all still together. I hate having to start all over again. God.

Basically today, school sucks. Oh wait. It always does. I'm looking forward to after school where my dearest sayang will be fetching me. At least he'll make my day. I miss him and can't wait! Quick 3.30pm.

it's the real life.
12:20 PM



9:10 PM


FINALLY. FINALLY, i got back my lappy. I had to wake up early morning at 8am on a Saturday morning just to get my ass to Jurong East to get it back. San was supposed to accompany me but i guess his sleep was way important then keeping his promise. Hahhs. So Bukhari was being a sweetheart to accompany me all the wayyyy. Thank you very much.

Now i've uploaded most of the pictures except some from others which i will very soon get and upload. Monday school will begin. New semester, new class, new all over again. I'm starting to study my course now. So my 5 new modules are Physics, Chemistry, Molecular & Cell Biology, Cognitive Problem Solving and WTFCKINGHELL, Maths. Fuck you okay, Maths.

That's it for now. Time to upload some pictures. And oh, my baby is currently in Malaysia. Two nights without you, is difficult. I miss you baby. Can't wait for tomorrow for your return Munir. Hugs & Wet Kisses.

she admits.
7:05 PM






7:00 PM


Okay i'll do a quick update before my brother comes back. Hahah.

Well, i had a Raye outing with Farid and his friends on Sunday night. Waited for him to get his ass out of bed until it was already 7pm. Headed only a few houses all on the West side. Damn i was really worn out. Found out his friends knows my brother. So we all ending up knowing each other. Small world, everyone will be connected to me. Wahh. -.-

Anyways, this one Suria Artis ended up joining us at midnight. Her name's Nurun Wara i think, alaa the singer of the Jeritan Sepi song. She was one of Farid's friend. So well. Reached home at 3 in the morning. That wraps my day.

Tuesday, went Raye with Munir dearest and his primary school mates. Went to his house at 9 in the morning while waiting for him to get ready and while waiting for his friends too. Altogether, we went to 13 houses on that day and i got a total of $50 in one day. That breaks my record. Hahah. Oh well. Homey at midnight. That wraps another day.

As for today, Raye with my secondary sch. classmates. I was late so i didnt follow them to the first house at Woodlands. I got ready and proceeded to meet dearest over at his place first since his house is blocks away from the second house, at Eunos. Waited for them to reach Eunos and off i went. Only got to around 7 houses. Will be continuing our outing tomorrow again.

I've not stayed at home for some while. My school will commence like what, MONDAY sia. So not looking forward to it AT ALL. And anyways, sorry there's no pictures yet. I've yet to get my lappy back! I miss my lappy. Bloody ACER.

come on girls, try harder.
11:59 PM



9:16 PM


Finally, i can sit down and use the computer. Well, my lappy is under repair that explains the lost of updates. I miss and need my lappy back quick. I've been busy out everyday and not been to work for a week. Whoohoo.

One of the days, went to meet Hazel at Tampines to get something for Zahidah's birthday. San called me up, wanting to meet so why not. Since i'm always busy on other days. He came down at night and joined us. Teeq joined us soon too. Hazel went back home and around 9pm, San went to meet his friend. Teeq and i waited for her mummy to end work and we together headed to Rase 21 for our dinner. That wraps the day.

I miss spending my days with my friends. How i used to meet different friends and boys from one to another. Girl gossips and bitching. Well, everything will change. Accept that fucking fact, ZAA.

Yesterday, headed to the movies with Dearest. Watched Phobia 2 at eHub. It's scary but the last part was damn stupid + hilarious i tell you. Everybody can't stop laughing expect for me because i have to control my bladder. Sad that i can't even laugh it all out. Hahah. Oh well. Went to meet Teeq at Tampines Interchange after.

I've been having plenty of dreams about almost everyone. The latest one was about Luqman. And i missed him so badly so i called him up yesterday night, thinking that he was in camp. But well i was wrong. He's out drinking away because it's his last day before he goes off to Brunei. WTH? I was furious okay cos i didn't even have the chance to meet him before that! Now i guess he's already off to Brunei for a month. =(

& i've yet to go house to house for Raye and also, i have plenty of pictures to post but it's all in my lappy. So sorry, you guys have to wait. Haha. Okay, im off.

Labels: in need of loud music and some wine.

2:15 PM







4:35 PM


Yesterday was a day out with dearest after work. We headed to Marina Sq. Had our lunch and walked around for a while before heading to the movies. The UGLY TRUTH was the other sex. It's really awesome, cute and hilarious. Soo. Go guys, go watch it! (:

After the movie ended, sat around opposite City Hall and just had a fun time talking our craps out. Headed home soon enough. Was early again at 11pm cos we both were really tired, as in REALLY.

And anyways, before i end this post i just remembered something witty. Dearest and i were walking around Marina Sq holding hands when someone approach us and asked "Hey, getting married?? Wanna see some of our portfolios?" What the hell. We just laughed our way out.

girls, girls. .

HARI RAYE IS TOMORROW BEBEH!

Labels: Im wabbit, who are you? Im a white dog and my name is Bobby.

4:20 PM




3:20 PM


Shopped my ass off yesterday with Baby Hazel. It's been months i last met and shopped with her. Miss that small bitch. So i ended up buying 2 more dresses and more accessories. I always get super contented whenever i shop!

Zahidah joined us during the break of fast cos she was from school. So went back to Tampines afterwards and slacked a little before off i go to Teeq's housey. Reached home quite early at 11pm.

Hari Raye is just a few days away. And before i forget all about school, it's 3 weeks away. Damn. And speaking of school, on Tuesday i went for my CCA chalet for a while to meet up with my CCA peeps. It's located at Aloha Loyang. Whoohoo. Electronic Music Production is the sex.

I'm off to do my work.

Guys, get lost cos you're never getting me, jerks.
2:30 PM






2:29 PM



3:40 PM


Gawd eww, what's this? Dogs, please don't dirty my tagboard, okay? I like it clean. Well you can tag and throw your craps on my tagboard but bare in mind, i'll not give any attention. It's just like someone begging for attention but sadly, got none. Aww, sorry.

Anyways, one of the days i went to break my fast with dearest Fareyhin. Also, i've finally got my hair done! It didn't turn out the colour i wanted but well at least it's alright. I wasted my hundreds on it which means now i have lesser to spend. But, i still might be going shopping by this week.

I have no idea what else to update on because i can't remember much. Im working at 9pm to 3am today anyway. Such a bore.

Okay, bye my frequent readers. -_-

aww, i love you baby.
2:25 PM



11:50 PM


I love life more when people makes me the main topic of their lives. Whooooo.

Anyways, hopefully i can get my hair all done by tomorrow and then on Sunday, heading Bazaar with Family to get more Hari Raya outfits.

On the coming 17th of September, Nas basically has to go to court for his sentence. I don't wanna bother going but it doesn't seem nice if i don't. But, my dear will surely not like it. Right baby?

And oh well, i need to shop like real bad but i can't find the right time to. Next week, i'll be having a new bunch of plans. I love keeping myself busy!

i should break off.
11:45 PM


I hate mornings.
Morning makes me feel gloomy.
I hate the way things are now.
6:20 AM


I miss having a girl bestfriend.
One by one, people leave.
And till now, i'm still having difficulties coping with changes & losses.

I shall try to keep my life as low as can be.
And accept whatever that comes my way.

Labels: harder then you thought

6:10 AM

Labels: my love munir

11:20 PM


Customer: I just got my order and something's missing.
Me: Okay, what is missing?
Customer: I didn't receive my 2 straws.
Me: What? Your straws?
Customer: Yah.
Me: Ohh. So you want them to deliver you the 2 STRAWS? *with a pathetic looking expression*
Customer: Yah.
Me: Ohh, alright then. I'll inform the hub manager regarding this and ask them to deliver it to you asap.
Customer: Ok, thank you.

Funny lah customers this days. He still needs his straws even though his at home. The manager laughed too. Hahaha, so cute but funny okay. Pity the rider to go back to the place just to deliver TWO STRAWS. Hahaha. Ohh well.

Anyways, i don't have much to update. Just that im meeting Munir later on. We're going to Jurong East! I think i've never been there. Pathetic eh. I'm bringing along my heavy lappy to get it repaired.

& i'll be getting my hair done by this week! Eh, best!

If you are a nice girl, i would prolly pitied you. But knowing that you actually bitch about me/ other people. I doubt i should give you any sympathy. And so, i can bitch too.
2:30 PM


Can't wait to get my hair done.
Can't wait for the 20th September.
Can't wait to meet my friends.
& i can't wait to party.

Working tonight at 9pm to 3am.
Booooooring.
5:50 PM


I've been having a sore throat and a terrible headache for 3 days already. So skipped a few days of fasting. Working with a sore throat is really not easy. Today, i managed to work for 10 hours straight. Well done! It's been some time since i worked for long hours. Ohh well.

Okay, yesterday met my dearest after my work at 8pm and we headed to Geylang. Met my bitches, Hana and Nadirah there. And her friend, Syafiq was with us too. So the 5 of us walked around the whole bazaar.

Bumped into plenty of my friends, as usual. I got over excited when i bumped into Luqman sayang! Cos it's been months that i last met him alright. Will be meeting him soon this week bebeh. And bumped into my Yishun boys too.

Omg, i'm missing so much people right now. Firstly, i miss my Hazel the most. As you guys can see, we're not meeting as usual anymore. Well, she's too busy i guess. Hmms. Anyways, I miss Teeq, Shakila, Manina, Sue, Luqman, Yishun boys, Fareyhin, Farid too. I so must meet this people if possible all by this week!

Lastly, i love you baby. (:
8:15 PM






8:00 PM


Just got home from work and damn, i really am not feeling well. I have a really terrible headache, a sore throat and flu. And yet, i'm fasting. I need my panadols and medicine. Few more hours to go before i fill my fat tummy.

Well, some updates. Few days back, i broke my fast with my darlings. Irfan, Mamat, Nadirah, Hana and Iqah. We had Baked Cheese Rice at 18chefs at Simei. It was mouthwatering and especially the ending part when Nadirah and Hana bought Mamat and i Ice cream with Brownie for our belated birthday treat. Like so sweet. Thanks for the treat my two bitches. Love lovee.

Went bowling after at eHub. After which, they watched some Movie while i went home sweet home cause i was really too tired already.

As for yesterday, i finally had my hair cut. But well actually, there's not much difference. Like seriously. All that was done was some trimming and a bit of layering. Well, it doesn't matter anyway because as i said, i just want it to be shaped a bit. So yeah, next, new hair colour.

Spending everyday with him completes everything. I love you for loving me the way i am. I love you for making me feel special. I love it everytime you kiss my forehead. I love it everytime you sacrifice for me. I love it when you take good care of my feelings. I love it when you won't stop saying 'I love you'. I love it whenever im with you.

omg, are you serious? haha. now i wonder who's the cheap one.

5:30 PM


i wonder how i fell in love with that boy. . .

baby.

will update tomorrow.
currently tired to think.

1:30 AM


It's 6 in the morning and i just finished having my pre-dawn meal. In a few minutes time, i'm off to get myself ready for work. I'm working at 8am to 2pm today. And the sad thing is that i only manage to sleep for a pathetic hour today. I'm currently tired and i hope my sore throat won't get any worse. I don't wanna go to work. =((

Yesterday night went to Teeq's house and Munir baby came too. And Teeq's family headed to Ikea so we followed too. Walked around and i have so many dreams to be accomplished. I want my house to look like that, I want my room to look like this, I want this theme for my future house. Blaa blaa. Hahah.

Alright, i need to bathe now!

i've loved you more everyday and can't get enough of you, baby.
6:15 AM


I love you, baby.

pity that he doesn't want you anymore.
4:31 PM


Okay, let's update.

Yesterday was a pretty nice day out with my dearest. It's some sort of celebrating my 18th and hearing that it's his first time doing such things, i think it's pretty sweet of him. So we ate before catching a movie at Marina Square. But before that, we had some time to walk around Esplanade to see the Baybeats thingy before the movie starts.

Catch the Final Destination in 3D and it's pretty much grosss! Without 3D, i think the movie would be quite boring because of the plain story line but the 3D makes things look so real. Scary! Well, after the movie ended around 11pm, sat nearby Marina and soon took the last MRT back. Stopped at Eunos and went to Ubi.

We ended the night perfectly. Right honey? Hahah. (: Well, i took NR7 back home in the morning. Thanks for the day honey.

Today, i break my fast at Qeena's house together with Siti Aishah and Qeena's boyfriend, Danial. It's been some time i went over to her house to meet her family. Things are still the same there. I just miss being there every time in the past. Oh well. Had a nice dinner and surprisingly had a 'small celebration' as Danial bought me a cake. Blow candles! Thanks Siti Aishah for the dress, thanks Qeena's mom for the nice meal and $$$. And thanks Danial for the cake. Love you guys.

mirror your fucking pussy first before saying im cheap, bitch.
10:40 PM

my loves.

10:30 PM

Oh hello. I am Zaa and I am eighteen. I have a thing for love. Love stories, love novel & love movies, turns me on. And oh, I'm taking my diploma in Biomedical Sciences and i have a fairytale dream of going to the University.

I do things my way and am not welcoming anyone to teach me. No one taught me to please people. Despicable people, just seriously quit wasting your time.

Baby; i'm confused.

My girlfriends & boyfriends.
My dearest.♥

& Qeena back in my life.♥♥



My forever most favourite sweetheart.
In my heart & mind forever.
❤❤❤❤


Dear Haters, you'll have to beg for my attention. Cos you know you'll never get any.